Friday, February 28, 2014

Music and My Weird Brain

Music music music. I LOVE MUSIC! I've been in singing groups, choirs, bands and many more! I mean, what could life be without music? Movies would be dull and a lot of things would suck. But there's a weird reason why I kinda reject music especially good music. It's because of...... my brain. My brain, and it's weird associations. 

I love listening to music. I also love singing songs. I also love WRITING my own songs. In fact, I started singing since I was 3 or 4 and started writing my first melodies when I was eleven. I started writing my First complete song when I was 13 and won at a competition because of this. Given all of this, one may say that I really love music, but there is really something with music and my weird brain that makes me want to stop listening to good songs. 

I received my first album when I was in grade three. I remember asking my parents for the Yasmin Kurdi album. Lol. You might not know her. She was a famous contestant at a local TV show in the Philippines called Starstruck. She had her own album and my parents promised me that album if ever I get a perfect score on my science exam. I studied real hard and aced the test. That is the reason why, tadaa, I got the CD. I was so addicted to that CD and whenever I hear those songs, I remember my gradeschool days and the good old days when I felt so pretty. I was still accepted at school this time. Lol.

To sum this up, I bought and was given several albums. I owned The Highschool musical Soundtrack, the Hannah Montana soundtrack, The Naked Brothers band Album, the Hannah Montana Two soundtrack, Taylor Swift's self-titled album and Fearless. There are a lot more but that is not the point. The point of this is that the songs in those albums are great. Because of this, I would always play those songs on my CD player. I'd listen to those songs non-stop. Well, the sad part is that the artists of those songs grew up and..... Well, I kinda got stuck in that phase that is why whenever they'd play one of those songs, I'd CRY.. As in CRY.. I don't know. My brain just associated it with the great feeling that those songs gave me. It's just that I hate it because I know that I do not feel that kind of happiness at present day. As an example, during my first days and months in college, I could not help myself but listen to Demi Lovato songs. I mean I love her songs. Well, during those first days, I felt really really happy because I was finally in college! It's a new chapter in my life. Because of this, whenever I hear her songs like, "Neon Lights", I get this crazy feeling of happiness. And then I'd remember the happy and CHILL days of college. Lol. How I miss those days. 

Anyway, to make things short, I stop listening to music because I feel like my mind is associating things with the music that I hear. I mean it OVER associates things. I don't want to listen to such because it gives me a nostalgic feeling and I don't like the feeling of nostalgia. I don't know.. I just don't like it...... I hope I can conquer this though. I mean, I only have one life to live. I just need to get over this thingy... Anyway, I'll update you and will write a complete list of songs and my associations to those. Lol. :)  

Friday, February 21, 2014

Kuya Guard Strikes again!


                I was having a real bad day as I went to my mom's office yesterday. That explains the ugly sad face I projected. While I was on my way to the gate, I saw Kuya guard (know him first here) again. I looked at him and since I was having a bad day, I ignored him, as if I did not see him at all. But he walked up to me and said hi. That's it. I have no escape now. 

"Kamusta? (how are you?)"

"Okay naman po kuya (I'm okay sir)"

"Mukhang malungkot ka ah (You look sad today)"

"Opo kuya eh. Pagod sa school. And hindi po talaga ko okay ngayon eh. (Yes sir. I'm tired because of school and I'm honestly not okay right now)"

"Kakayanin mo rin yan! Ikaw pa! Ngiti naman diyan oh! Bata ka pa! Dapat lagi kang fresh looking! (You can make it! I know you can! Flash a smile, can you? You're young! You should always look fresh!)"

"Haha. Parang ikaw kuya? (Haha. Just like you sir?)"

"Hindi. Matanda na ako. Dito nalang ako. Haha. (Nope. I'm old now. I'll just stay here and work)"

"Haha. Kuya naman eh. Pero thank you po ah! (Haha. Sir you're funny. But thank you sir for everything, okay?)"

"Naman. (sure)"

"Uhm, una na po ako ha? Bye Kuya! (I'll go ahead now sir, alright? Good bye sir!)"

"Good bye and God bless!"

After this conversation, tears flowed from my eyes. I was like, "Lord, thank You! Thank you because even if I don't deserve your love you still show your loving kindness by using other people.I love you Lord!"

Kuya Guard was used again by The Lord. How can The Lord use you today?


Tuesday, February 18, 2014

A New Challenge


So I have decided to join the challenge about posting things that makes you happy in a span of 100 days. Just saw people posting things with a hashtag of 100happydays. I got curious that's why I'll try it.

I have decided to join this #100happydays challenge because I want to make a habit of counting my blessings day by day. There are a lot of reasons why I can't count my blessings. I can name excuses. I can ignore small blessings. Neglecting small blessings is not right because it does not make you happy. It does not make you grateful and it leads you to an unhealthy emotional and even physical life. This is the reason why I want to try this challenge. I want to be able to realize that one photo is not enough for you to know that you are blessed. There are a lot of things that can make you happy in a day, you just gotta pay attention, and when you do, oh boy, you'll feel blessed. Other than ignoring these small blessings, I can also say that I don't have time because of the pressure that college brings. And even if I do have the time for it, I don't really name these blessings. Meaning, I just let these little things pass without even thanking God for what He has done.

There's this instance where my Uncle Norman Capili asked me to name things that proves the fact that I am blessed and that I am not supposed to be insecure. I started saying my very supportive parents and ended by saying almost all the things that I SHOULD and COULD be grateful for. After saying all those stuff, I was like, RIIIIIGHT. It's not that I'm not blessed enough, it's just that I don't count my blessings. I hope that joining this challenge could help me realize a lot of things and I hope that this will help me be the person that God has called me to be.

If you wanna find out where I post my #100happydays pictures follow me at my Instagram, that's shekinahbongco. Thanks for reading. Hope you also take this challenge and I hope that both of us will realize that we are blessed. You are blessed!

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Trash Drive

I know, I suck at making titles. UGH. Anyway, valentines day is just around the corner. Some say it's the independence day, when, you know, singles celebrate their independence and individuality. Lol. Valentines ain't the main point of this post by the way. Lol. 

Here goes, today, February 12, 2014, I bought an 8 GB flash drive for my sissy. It's supposed to be for her birthday. I spend 300 pesos for this flash drive. I mean, it's 8 GB and inexpensive, what more could I ask for right? Lol. Anyway, so I brought it home, excited about how my sister would react to it. I placed it on top of her bed and went to my room to check my social networking sites. To cut the story short, my sister saw it and thanked me. I told her about it's capacity and asked her to try it in our computer. So she did as she was told. Here's the sad part though. The Flash drive did not work. To make things worse, it stated that the capacity is only 4MB. Lol. This reminded me of the other 8GB flash drive that I know. It's just that this one is more expensive than what I bought. It's price is more than six hundred pesos, double the price of what I already purchased. Did I mention that this flash drive looks plain, while the 300 peso one is well-designed? I didn't buy this flash drive because it's too expensive, meaning I should save more money and I should wait for a long period of time before I can give it to my sister. 

This situation reminded me of courtship. As valentines day approaches, I got reminded of my worth as a woman who should be pursued by REAL MEN. I also realized my value as a woman.

I can compare two girls to the flash drives that I have mentioned earlier. 

First girl in relation to the 300 peso flash drive.
  • Widely available
  • Easy to get
  • Good outward appearance poor inward content. 
While the second girl in relation to the 600 peso flash drive.

  • Worth the wait
  • Requires a long period of time upon purchase.
  • Plain outward appearance but outstanding inside quality. 
I am not saying that women can be bought, what I'm saying is that women have qualities that can be found in these two flashdrives.

             God reminded me that we princesses of God should always guard our hearts and we should also raise our standards high, but if we do so, we must also ensure 'the one' that we are worth the wait. 

             This situation reminded me that I should stay pure because one day, my prince charming would pursue me. And when he does, I want him to see me like the 600 peso flash drive. I am not saying that I want to be perfect. In fact, I am not. I've been through a lot of trials and that's the good thing about flash drives. In flash drives, creators could delete and edit the flash drive for it to transform from trashy to classy. In the same way, God can also change us. It says in Romans 12:1-2, "1Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy , to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God- this is your spiritual act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will." (NIV). This verse is encouraging because it reminds me that I should offer my body as a living sacrifice to my father. What if I already gave my V thing, you may ask, then, you must know that God is a loving God and he forgives those who ask for forgiveness. And he can not only forgive you from your sins but he can also TRANSFORM you! Well, for me, that's great news because I have an assurance that even if my past is so tragic, I am sure that I can have a great future because my Lord holds my future. This also assures us that God even plans our great future with our future partner! :) All we gotta do is guard our hearts now, so when he appears to pursue you, you can be seen as a treasure. 

For the guys out there, if you will pursue women, who would you choose? It is typical for guys to choose the easier girl, trust me, let us not be hypocrites at this point. Most guys would choose the one who will easily say yes. Why? They would, because of lust. Media shows that in the teenage years, it is normal to be in a relationship, that is why guys want to be in one too. I just pray that guys would choose to seek women who are like the 600-peso flash drive. That way, when that girl finally says yes, then the guy would treasure her forever. He would because it took so long just for him to be with her. It's like a big dream come true for him. :) 

To end this blog, I would like you to know that I pray that you (readers), would see valentines day as an opportunity to check yourselves. Are you reserving yourselves for that special someone? Well, I hope you are. Because God just reminded me to do so. I also pray that you guys would encounter Jesus using simple situations such as this one. 

P.S. I am not a grammar expert so forgive me. HUHU.

Friday, February 7, 2014

It's Not Just A Game Of Dress Up

The One Week Fashion Challenge. 

This post is about the lessons that I have learned in the "One Week Fashion Challenge". 

The One Week Fashion Challenge is a challenge given by my bestfriend, Koleen Bartolome. She told me to dress up for a week, so that I would look different. On a regular day, I'd wear a shirt, jeans and sneakers. I'd wear a ponytail so that my hair won't be messy. 

I realized a lot of things during this challenge. More than the challenge of carrying myself with all those clothes, I realized that there's more to this challenge that "dressing up". I realized that as I received cool comments like, "Uy, si Shek, nakadress", "Bagay sayo shek, magskirt ka nalang lagi" and many more, I kinda became vain. I mean, I am already vain being the kikay kid that I am, but I became MORE vain. Uh-oh.. That sounds like trouble. 

I realized during this challenge, that the inside battles are harder than the outside battles. It's easy for a woman to change her outward appearance, but the things unseen by the naked eye are the things that are harder to change.  

I learned that beauty isn't just about how you look, or how you dress up, but it's about how you transform on the inside. When a person transforms on the inside, every good thing will just radiate out of her, making her truly beautiful. I realized that at the end of the day, it's still what's on the inside that matters.

Contrary to that, I also realized several things. I realized that there's no harm in dressing up. I realized that looking and feeling beautiful is not a bad thing. That is why, I will start dressing up for good. I want to start dressing up because I realized, if I don't start now, when will I? There's just one life to live and I won't waste my 17th year on earth wearing my old clothes, but I promise that I won't stop being simple. I won't stop being me and I won't stop checking my heart, because my beauty should come from within. :)

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Before the Challenge..

Before The one week fashion challenge.

Lol. I know, you might think that I'm making a big deal out of this little dress up game that my friends asked me to do. Oh, I am alright. Lol. 

If you know me and see me on a daily basis, then you might conclude that I am not the most fashion conscious person ever. Well. I was. Lol. In the Philippines, we call these type of girls "kikay". Well, I used to be REALLY REALLY kikay... By the age of 6 I already know the basics of make-up. By the age of 9-10 I was already know how to put make-up, make-up basics, how to take care of your skin and many more. During this time, I'd buy total girl magazine just to know the latest fashion trends, but that's when my parents intervened. They told me that beauty isn't about what's on the outside, but what's on the inside. That thought challenged me a lot. That is why I chose to stop. They didn't tell me to stop this whole fashion freaky thing though. I just did. I have reasons though. I hope you'd see, if I kinda have a point. 

Well, I chose to stop being my fashion freakish self because...

  • I want to see who could love and accept me even if I wore ordinary clothes.                                                    -Usually, people like having good looking friends who are well dressed and who are physically presentable. If not all, most of the people do. Because I wear ordinary clothes, I got to know people who loved me and who accepted me just because I am me. That's a comforting fact, ya know. I got to know REAL friends. I mean  I'd rather have a few friends just as long as these friends are real ones.
  • I like shocking people in important events.                           - When a girl is always well-dressed and pretty, people would expect that they are like that as well during special events like a debuts, parties and more. I like shocking people when I dress up in these events. I love the feeling when they'd all be like, "Shekinah!! Is that you?" It sure is. Lol.
  • I go to school not to be in a fashion show but to STUDY.              - I don't dress to impress. I mean a lot of people would go to school with super fashionable clothes and stuff, which is not bad by the way. They'd wear super cute outfits because they love fashion. And I do too. I love seeing them shine. :) But I believe that I shouldn't be wearing those clothes just because I am not impressing anybody and I came there to study and not to display my clothes. Besides,I choose comfort over style. Lol. That's the reason why on a regular day, I'd wear a shirt, jeans and rubber shoes. Lol.
  • If I do dress up, I would be VERY VAIN.                              -Lol. I am already super vain with those regular clothes, what more if I wear my fashionista clothes? Lol. I'd be so conscious about how I look and all that. NOT A GOOD THING.                                                                    
Having said all these, you might think that I am a fashion hater, but I am not. Lol. I'm still a fan of fashion but I try to keep it hidden. Right now, I want to focus on what's on the inside. Changing my outward appearance is easy peasy, but changing the inside is a loooooooooooong process. It needs patience and it needs time, the problem is, I can never perfect it. That's why I accepted the new born challenge my best buddies told me. As I try to let loose and dress up a bit, I want to still make sure that I will let God transform my mind and my heart through His word. That way, I'd be pretty inside and out. 

Major P.S. The next blog that I'll post later is about the lessons that I've learned during the One Week Fashion Challenge! 

Thursday thundah! The One Week Fashion Challenge

My last and personal fave outfit! I super love this look. Top from Seventeen and skirt from Terranova. ❤️💚💜💛💙

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Wednesday Wondah. One week fashion challenge

Today is the hardest day of this challenge because I have to wear rubber shoes! Here's how it looked like.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Use Me Like Him, Lord.

 Some people neglect security guards. They don't even smile and reply to them when they say, "Good morning mam". Well, being the super sociable kiddo that I am, I do reply and say hi to them. I don't know, I guess I'm that friendly. Lol. Anyway, ever since I studied in Manila, I would always go home with my mom. That is why, after class, I'd walk from school to her office and when I'm about to enter the building the security guards would block me and ask, "Mam, para san po?" 
"Pupuntahan ko po si mommy."
"Si Rosa po"
"Anong department"
"______ po"
"Ahhh. Sige mam" 
Those conversations would repeat every time the guards would switch places. But there's this one guard who's really friendly. We chatted for a while and I discovered that he goes to church at Victory Malate. :) Since then, we would always say hi to each other. In other words, he became my friend. I saw him a while ago and he greeted me. What struck me was his words of encouragement. "Oh, hindi na kita nakikita ah..."
"Lagi po kasi akong ginagabi eh.."
"Oh? Naubusan ka ng schedule?"
"Hindi po, ako po pumili nun.. Mali po pagpili ko. Hahaha. Ang hirap nga po eh. Stressed na stressed na po ako"
"Dibale, kakayanin mo yan.. By faith.. In Jesus' Name."

Those words may be simple but it def put a smile on my face. :) I am blessed because I met kuya. He not only became a friend but he also became a blessing, because he let God use Him.

This reminded me that I should be like him as well. I should be a friend to all and at the same time, I should let God use me to inspire others. I should let God use me to be a blessing to others. I encourage you dear reader! A security guard, who is often neglected, has been used by God. Don't you want to be used for His glory? ;)

Tuesday Trendin'. One Week Fashion Challenge.

I survived today's fashion challenge. YAAAY. My skirt is just super super super short, which is super awkward on my part. Anyway, here are OOTDs. The assessment of this Challenge will be posted at the end of the week! :) 

Would like to thank my best friends Iphone for these photos. Lol. And my best friend took these by the way :) (Koleen) :) 

Monday, February 3, 2014

Monday madness. One week fashion challenge.

I received good remarks today like, "WOW NAKADRESS." And stuff like that. I started by simply mixing and matching of my old pieces. Here goes...

Sunday, February 2, 2014

The One Week Fashion Challenge

While buying a skater skirt at the University Mall, my best friend suddenly asked me why I don't wear skirts that much. Yesterday, while leading our victory group, one of those young ladies told me, "Ate, simple ka lang no?" These two instances challenged me.. That's why this week, starting Feb. 3, 2014, I will dress up and will try to be my kikay and fashion freak self. :) Lol. Will post OOTD's in my instagram ;)